Murph 2016

So, so proud of you babe for completing your first Murph Challenge! I saw you struggling at parts but you kept pushing through and you did it!! I would have loved so much to have done it with you!! But we always have next year. 😊

Such a great group of peopleCrossFit TBRR, everyone seriously rocked it today on Murph. It is not an easy workout but you all pushed through! The vibe of determination and grit was strong there today. I'm Proud of all of you!!

Some funnies....

These pretty much sum up my life lately.... 

No Excuses

 Hope I don't lose all my gains while I'm not able to workout over the next few months. My plan is to focus on diet, since I can't on fitness.

Trust

Well this mornings phone call with the surgeons office didn't go as I had hoped but I know God has a plan and it isn't always as we hoped it will be.

I just found out my surgery will not be until June 22, I was hoping to find a way to have it be sooner but it is not possible as the Dr will be out of office most all of June.

I'm desperate to get back to work (and working out). So this was very disappointing news. I won't be able to return to work for 4-6 weeks after surgery so that's going to put me right at the edge of running out of medical leave (which I'm still waiting to see if I'm approved for). I'm so tired of being in constant pain though as well and the thought of waiting a whole other month is very discouraging. I am thankful I can at least get the surgery, so I'm going to try to focus on the positive and leave the rest that is out of my control to God and pray my job will be understanding. It's the best company I've ever worked for, and such great people I work with. I just pray I don't run out of medical leave before I can get back, and I hope they give me the time to catch up on the 12 weeks of learning I will have missed.

Date Night

Date night....it has been one of those nights where you get all dressed up and your hair did.... Then you get to town and realize you don't feel like going out but you put too much effort into it not to go. Hahaha.
Our date night grand plans made a detour to Olive Garden.

Wowza!!!

I've always complained and grumbled about our health insurance. Today I shall shut my mouth and be so incredibly thankful for it!!
Without it I would have no chance to get my back fixed and afford this 360 Spinal Fusion at $300,000.00 if I was paying for it without insurance!! Whew!


In other news..... I'm so over these pain pills!! I want a glass of wine!!!!

Mmmmm Yummy!

I may be limited in how hard I can workout right now, (some days the pains too bad to workout at all) but I can eat right. And man is it yummy!!
#youcantrytoknockmedownbutimnotstayingthere #nevereverquit #vegetarianseatgoodtoo

That explains things...

Finally some light at the end of the tunnel.

Thank you my sweet man Gabriel, for going to the appt with me this morning and helping me come to this decision and be at peace with it. Even though I'm scared to death of the idea of surgery on my spine.

They will be doing a minimally invasive surgery, going in through my abdominal to remove my bad disk and replace it with a metal spacer that will act as a disk. Then they will take blood from my hip bone to get platelets to use in the new disk to create a bone fusion. I will also have acouple screws put in my spine through my back.

Now we're just waiting on insurance to approve the surgery and hopefully I can get it done within the next 2-3 weeks. I will hopefully be able to return to work within 3-6 weeks after surgery. The best news!!?? I should be able to start working out again 3 months after surgery! Ok, the best news is getting out of pain but working out again is the next best news!

(The pictures kind of speak for themselves. You can see in the x-ray on the right, when I'm standing there is virtually no disk at all between the bones. The surgeon said it should have been the thickest disk there at the bottom!)

Leave

As if a herniated disk wasn't putting me in enough pain, my body thought it would add a kidney infection to the mix just for fun. Boy howdy do I ever feel like I've been hit by a bus. Hurts all over, body aches and cold chills and sweats an a Texas size headache. This would explain why I spent half my weekend at the ER. And they sent me home telling me I had a cold! Ha! Thank goodness I followed my intuition that this is just not right and went in to be seen. I haven't barely been able to even move my hand the past 3 hrs because I'm just so weak.

I know I've asked for alot of prayers lately, but I'm asking for more. I've proceeded to take a medical leave from work till I get surgery, the pain is just too intense, I never know when it's really going to increase. And sitting at my desk definitely is not helping. Had to leave work twice now in tears. I can't keep doing that. I'm waiting and praying it will be approved. I don't want to lose this job! Best place and people I have ever worked for and with.

I would like to add how amazing my husband has been through all of this. Taking care of me at every single turn, worried about me, taking care of the kids, loving on me. Words can describe how amazing he is! Goodness Gabriel I sure do love you!!!

Never Give Up

Never Give Up: The Story of Collin Clarke

https://www.facebook.com/MensHealth/videos/vb.56916320206/10156810885210207/?type=3

Such a great story!