2025 update

 Wow.

So apparently I started an update in 2021. And never finished typing it up or publishing it. 

So here we are 4 years later. Let me try to do a quick rehash of 2020 to current.

Dec 2021 I was running to get to the front door as someone had just rung the doorbell (a couple of friends had dropped by to suprise me for my birthday). So here I come, with my work laptop in my hand I ran around the corner in my bedroom and stepped on a dog bone trying hard to not drop my laptop, landing HARD strain on my tailbone. Kinda felt like I died for a second. Or at least wanted. Long story short. My back was ok. Thank God! But over the next few weeks my back pain around my surgery site slowly got work and worse till I was in terrible pain. I tried everything and spend hundreds of dollars trying to get tour of pain, massages, sports specialist, pt, chiro. Nothing was helping. I finally found  @iam_sean_the_therapist (on Instagram). He was a life saver! He is a manual movement therapist. I worked with him for about 5 weeks. And he took me from so much pain to completely pain free again through his special skills and training. Basically my Lower back muscles were all locked up from my fall.

So after getting through that tough experience it has been pretty smooth sailing. I still workout 5-6 days a week, with 3-4 of them being weight lifting. I have incorporated 15 to 20 minutes every morning before starting working out to do mobility and foam rolling. I believe it has been a game changer and keeping my body pain free.

I am coming up on 9 years since my surgery in just a couple months. I was told by many people, once you have a fusion you can pretty much plan to need another by around 10 years. So far it's going well. But I've also learned to listen to my body alot more the last couple years. And that I feel has made a big impact in keeping me mobile and pain free. Do I still get tension or tightness in my back? Yes, but not pain. And for that I am so thankful! 

So until next time....

3 years and 7 months later - Doing better than ever!

Well I haven't been posting updates on this blog. So that means one thing! I've been doing great since surgery, and too busy enjoying life. Sad but true, when life is good we are out enjoying it and when it's not we sit around complaining about it.

So what has happened in my life since the last post surgery update? Alot!!! This being one of my proudest accomplishments! Pulling a 19,000 lb semi truck approx 43 feet.  💪😊 I had actually done it for the first time, about 4 months prior for a total of about 35 feet.

If you recall from my previous post op post, I said I would never lift heavy again. Never go heavy on my deadlifts. Well I just had the wrong mindset. All I needed was a new mindset and the right person in my corner saying you can do this! And who helped me train to do it safely.

This is him. My badass trainer!  This man has encouraged me and helped push me when I was scared to in the gym.

  My deadlifts were maxing at 65# when I met him.  I have since gone above my pre surgery deadlift of 195# and... 

hit 235# deadlift just a few weeks ago! 💪💪 

My goal is to one day hit 250# but honestly I have no need or desire to ever go over that. I don't wanna play with fire for no purpose or reason. 

My last post talked about how my back still cramped alot. I no longer have that. I workout 6 days a week. I'm in the gym about 9 hrs of that week. I start each working in the sauna warming up and relaxing the muscles for the workout. I then spend about 5 min rolling and stretching, spending special focus on my back, lower back and glutes. That rolling and stretching each day makes all the difference!

Do I still feel that I had back surgery? Absolutely. But it's not a constant reminder that I live with. I do experience discomfort alot sooner than I use to with long amounts of standing or walking, I think that's my biggest reminder that I live with. But as you can see above lifting heavy things no longer is an issue as long as I'm smart about it.

One of my favorite phrases is the Japanese proverb "Nana korobi, ya oki" which means "Fall down seven times, stand up eight."  It means choosing to never give up hope, and to always strive for more. It means that your focus isn't on the reality in front of you, but on a greater vision that may not be a reality yet.

I now have it tattood on my ribs after asking my 13 yr old daughter to draw up the tattoo for me. ❤️

So until next time friends. And remember, It's not about how many times life knocks you down.... It's about how many times you get back up. 💪💪👌

Long Overdue Update - 19 months Post Op

Wow, what a difference 19 months makes. I didn't realize I had completely dropped the ball on updating this blog. My whole purpose of it from the beginning was to give others hope that walk this journey after mine knowing they are not alone. Knowing that others have gone down this road before and come out the other side A-ok.

When I started down this journey of possibly ending in surgery I looked all over the internet with so little info on people that had come out the other side ok, pain free, active, and back to their old life. I wanted to do something about that with this blog. Unfortunately I only got to week three and I guess got to feeling so good again, I didn't have time to sit around feeling sorry for myself and blogging about the journey of my doomdom.

So here is my quick update. 19 months later from one of the scariest things I have ever gone through and I am back to living life 98.5 normally. I can walk again without constant incredible pain, I can sleep again and rollover in the bed without feeling like I was just thrown from a vehicle and my spine broken in two. I can wake up in the morning and not cry out in pain. I can workout in the gym and ride my bike and enjoy the things that always brought me so much joy and happiness.

What is different?  Well there are definitely things that are different. I can't deadlift heavy... or maybe I can, but I won't. It hurts... right where the fusion was. Um, that's a big NO sign for me. Also if I bend over for too long my lower back cramps up. It's pretty intense but it passes in just a matter of a few seconds. I am still not sure why it does this and I had hoped with time it would go away but unfortunately I have slowly grown to accept it will be with me long term. But it is really such a small inconvenience compared to the pain was in before.

I did return to Crossfit, probably about 8 weeks after surgery. Very, very light weight. I missed my tribe, my people and the workout. But about 6 months ago I decided to join my husband working out at the big box gym and cancel my Crossfit membership.  I decided to do this for multiple reasons. We moved about 30 mins away from my Crossfit box and it just took much of my evening away from my family. Also I really wanted to workout together at the same time and place with my hubby and lastly I feel I can listen to my body so much better when I am working out solo. I have a tendency to overdue it and not listen to my body, thus what probably got me into this situation to begin with. So even though I am not at Crossfit now I am glad I was able to return and left on my own accord and not because I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. It's more along the lines of I think it's smarter for me long term  with my back issues to let Crossfit go, even though I love it so passionately.

I also haven't gone on a ride over 50 miles in a single ride on my bike yet. But not sure if that is because of my back or I just don't have time now with a full time job and a family (I was a SAHM for 10 years until just a few months before my surgery). So I get out and ride but my rides are usually in the 25-45 mile range.

Aside from those few things, I am all back 100% to where I was before.  I will call that a win, and something that I wish I could have seen down the road through a looking glass when I was going through those dark days after my surgery.

So if you are going through this or possibly looking at having surgery, I hope my blog helps you even a little. I am not some fancy writer or amazingly witty and for you English majors out there, you can see my grammar is pretty rough but hopefully it helped someone somewhere....without putting you to sleep. ;-)

3 weeks post op - Today is a rough day.

One step forward two steps back it seems sometimes....  I know I'm strong enough to get through this but then other times the road ahead seems so incredibly long and hard.  I wonder when am I ever going to feel myself again.  And all I wanna do is cry... Not sure if it's the pain or hormones but today I'm a mess.  I just wanna be me again.  I just wanna ride my bike again,  enjoy the warm weather in the pool,  exercise with my dear friends,  go on date nights with my husband,  go places with my kids...  I'm so incredibly tired of pain and hurting...

I just have to keep telling myself 👇 

Hot Days of Summer (Day 11 Post Op)

Whew, one more day down.  And one more day closer to not having to wear this brace. I will be so thankful when it comes off for good. But I guess there is no point in thinking about it too much cause I still have a ways to go. 

Today though,  I did get  a brief break from the brace while laying out at a friend's pool while the family had a nice swim... Enjoying the holiday weekend.  

Things have been going steadily with the healing.  I've been able to slowly taper down my pain pills.  So just on one pain pill a day now plus 3x a day I take 2 tylonal.  Can't wait to get off it all! 

Just  a few more days till my post op Dr appt!  Yay! Very curious to get  some questions answered and see how he thinks I'm healing.

In other news.  My husband ripped his bicep in his arm while moving some furnature, so now he has to have surgery too in just a few days. :( We are going to be a funny sight when we are out together. Lol. 

This is some cool stuff right here....! (Day 8 Post Op)

Howdy folks, another day post surgery, and another day closer to being normal again. I try not to think too much about how dreadfully far I still have to go to get back to normal otherwise I'm washed over with a wave of discouragement and I can't let myself live there. So I try to focus on counting each day that goes by.

So there is this really cool thing that came with my hip kit that I order off of Amazon (click to see item) that I told ya'll about the other day, but I wanted to show you my second favorite tool in there (the first being the grabber/reacher). 

       

 So here is my second favorite tool, the sock assist tool. Do you know how incredibly impossible it is to put your sock on when you can't bend or twist? Trust me it is. Well this great little doodad is amazaballs! 

Pretty nifty huh!?? 

(if the gif doesn't play, click on the image) 

Last of all for today (cause hubby has pizza coming and I am actually hungry), did I mention ya'll how much weight you can gain in the hospital, even when your barely eating anything!?? I gained 13 pounds while staying two nights in the hospital. Can someone say IV overdose!? Whew, I wasn't prepared for that. If I had know I would have brought some looser fitting clothes to wear home (which I should have anyway), I did get the comfortable, just not so loose. Ah well, if you have over night surgery stays planned, be prepared for all the possible water weight! 

On the bright side, I have lost all but 1.5 lbs of the weight I gained while there, so I will call that a win.

Ok folks, well I am off to enjoy some delicious pizza and Cheesecake Factory cheesecake (yeah not so wholesome, but I did that for breakfast and lunch today). Hope you all enjoy your 4th of July weekend!!

YAY! (Post Op Day 7, I made it to week ONE!)

Yay! I finally made it to week one!  I am actually feeling pretty normal again, except always needing help out of the chair, tying my shoes,  sore and tight abdominal/lower back region. I still feel like an invalid but each day gets a little easier.

So since was feeling so good I decided to venture out and get  get my nails done. I've been having some pretty bad cabin fever and I was really feeling a need to GET OUT!  It was my first time to drive post surgery (I highly advise talking to your Dr before driving post op!!), but all went well and I only went a couple miles down the road.

So this evening I decided to get out of the house again for a change to see some other human friends. Let me tell you, being coop up in a house 24 hrs a day, uncomfortable and with very limited mobility can really get to playing games with your head. SO it felt so so good to get out and see some friendly faces, and get back to a place full of people that mean so much to me. It really did my psyche good!! 

Let me clarify, I may look all 100% back, but I am not quite there by a long shot. I still get uncomfortable (something that builds by the minute) if I walk or stand or sit for more than 10-15 at a time. My bed and my recliner are my favorite places. But I try to limit them as I know that walking is important. I try to be up and mobile as close to half the day as possible but my days have gone from 16 hrs days to 12 hr days.